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Suicide has such strong energy

Alrght.. i just read a pretty sad suicide story. And to sum it all up this girl commits suicide and the rest of the tow practically reacts. New clubs in school to prevent such things. all this energy…

I have a personal story..

Daisy was a 16 year old girl who started dating a 26 year old guy (Trent) and she lied about her name and age claiming she was in her 20’s for a while until the feelings became stronger. she looked older for her age.

when she was 17 she got pregnant with a little girl by Trent.

Daisy was and had always been very sensitive…

She almost gave birth to her daughter at High School her senior year..

February 17, 1994 Angel Beth was born.

She named her daughter Angel because she changed her life.

Daisy stopped doing some dangerous things, but still at times was a rebel.

Daisy took special care of Angel and was extra gentle with her.

Daisy didn’t make very good decisions though in her life

Trent got angry and left her but still wanted to be apart of angel’s life

Daisy got with a drug dealer that hurt and abused both Daisy and Angel.

Trent’s parents watched over angel a lot when he would work and noticed marks on daisy and Angel one day after coming from her Bf’s.

Trent fought for custody

Daisy was hurt and didn’t want angel taken away

Daisy’s father passed on due to cancer

at the age of 20, She went to the park one day with her Drug Dealing bf and after he left, she pulled the trigger to her chest.

Daisy’s brother, Daniel, committed suicide a year or so after.

As for me. My name is Angel:)

I live with my Dad, Trent, which is next-door to my grandparents and uncle.

I’m 18 years old

Im a senior at the school i am currently attending

Ive had numerous thoughts of suicide, because the disorder is in the genetics.

i saw the hurt my family went through from my mom’s actions.

I decided not to do the same and not to make a permanent mistake due to a temporary feeling.

My mother was a strong woman truly. I takes some nerves to be able to hold a gun to yourself. yes i know it takes a stronger person to just not do it, but I barely even knew her and i understand. This world is made of positive and negative energy. the energy my mom gave off was both. A lesson was learned not only to me, but I really want to help those who have had hard times in their life. My name is angel not only because i changed my mom’s life, but because i want to change others. I know my mothers outcome wasn’t as satisfactory as i would liked to have had it, But honestly… what is a baby supposed to do? I would think that as more of a reason not to do it because I’m sure i was way cuter back then.. ha, but i forgive her, and i love her. And i’m not as touchy with this subject as i used to be because its life. These things happen. Bad things happen to everyone.

I know my mom regrets what she has done…

oh yes, if you know me don’t talk to my dad about any of this. He’s more touchy about this than me or anybody else i know. I found this all out by my grandparents. My dad may seem tough but he is sensitive as well… so please respect that…. ill edit this post later and put a picture of my mom up as well. Im going to also make a video for mothers day most likely.

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